Testimony by BBW Participant

Although I have been a Christian since I was 17, I backslided in my 20s and was in the wilderness for some 20 years. I did not fully know God or His purpose for me. I was wilful, selfish and proud. I was hurting myself and others. When things did not get better, I blamed God. A few years ago, a day before Christmas Eve, I was at the lowest point of my life. I challenged God to show himself to me, to let me know that He is real. The thing about our God is this – when He chooses to reveal Himself, He will do a thorough and perfect job. He planted people to tell me that His love for me is real and that I need not doubt. He has revealed His truth and His love to me at 3 different occasions. I was no longer in doubt because I experienced God’s promise of unfailing and everlasting love.

But God was not done with me. He is not satisfied with a partial transformation. There is still one more unresolved issue – my broken relationship with my mother. When a fellow cell member, Dorothy, invited me to attend a BBTC Breakthrough Weekend for Women (BBW), I thought I could use a short break in Malaysia.
The theme of the BBW that year was on mother-daughter relationship. Many sisters in Christ went forward to be prayed for, so I followed the herd. I saw my cell member, Dorothy, who was an intercessor and she prayed for me.

As she prayed for me, my tears flowed freely. Her prayer touched the very core of my heart and revealed the deep hurt I had because my mother did not know how to love me. Then both of us started sobbing together. It was a cathartic moment and I knew that God saw my hurts and wanted to heal me. Still His purpose for me was yet complete. The next day, He revealed another deep hurt in me which I had hidden for many years. Again, Dorothy and another sister in Christ prayed for me and I experienced relief and healing.

Through BBW that year, I also got to know Jessie, who was my facilitator. I did not know that our path would cross after the BBW. The weekend after BBW, Jessie’s group was supposed to meet her but no one turned up except me. As the saying goes ‘Nothing happens by chance’. This turned out to be a divine appointment. I had just gone through an emotional breakdown and Jessie was there to counsel me and pray for me.

Looking back, God’s plan for my transformation was not only purposeful, it was perfect. He meets my need for a loving Father, a merciful Savior and my Lord in whom I can trust. The amazing thing is when I am steadfast in my love and trust in God, obedience, love for worship, kindness, goodness, patience and even sharing the gospel becomes part of my spirit man. I no longer look back at my old life and look forward to a new life that God has lovingly planned for me. My favourite verse is Galatians 2:20 ‘ I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.’ I have been transformed by God and my life will never be the same again.

By Eunice Sui

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